Analyzing my relationship

Last night we went out salsa dancing. Many times she leaned over to kiss me and grabbed my hand. When I finally put my arms around her at the end of the night, she responded like a little cat. Snuggling up and closing her eyes in the comfort she finds with me.

She's still a virgin, and she has given me no idea on when she's going to be ready. I probe often, trying to find out why she's holding out. She usually says "that's just where my comfort level is."


Mackenzie dated Jonny for 2 years, and so far we've dated for just over 2 months. I lost my virginity when I was 16, she's 23. The first girl I had sex with, it took 3 nights of courtship over the course of 4 days and I remember many of the details.

I don't know how long I'm going to stay with her, but in my mind, I know that it's going to be for awhile.

There's a parallel between her issue and mine. Her ambiguous time frame on when we're going to have sex is similar to my ambiguous time frame on how long I want to stay with her. And to some extent, these two issues lean on one another, like two boards of wood making a little triangle. Neither one is straight, rigid and solidly placed into the ground. When I ask her how long is it going to be before we have sex, she says, "not for awhile." When I ask myself how long I'm going to stay with her, my answer is, "for awhile."

Both of these elements of our relationship have quite an influence upon one another.