Turning fear into anger.

At least when it's in anger I'm doing something.
At least when it's anger I'm not afraid.

When it's anger, I'm more prone to do something self-destructive.
When it's anger, I'm more likely to sabotage my own efforts and bring about the result which I feared the most.

And when it's done. I'm no longer afraid of the result. When I do it out of anger, I'm just on my knees, looking at the rubble around me. And then I feel sad. I cry, and curl up in the rubble and go to sleep.