Super horny

I'm having a hard time interacting with women I find attractive. I'm so pent up, it's agony. I just want to release. But not masturbation, it just doesn't cut the tension. I feel like I'm doing something wrong when I check out a girl. As if I shouldn't be doing it. I don't want someone to catch me staring. So I look down. I kick my heels against the ground. I tap my steel toes against the concrete and then I look back up again. But there she is, in the corner of my eye. I can't help myself. I look again, and feel a rising sensation in my chest. It urges me to take action. To approach her. But I remain put. This is my spot. I am to stand here, and fulfill my duty.

I want to move. I want to either leave, or to nail that chick so hard her head'll spin. Either way, I hate staying in the in-between. The forces of primal instinct and instilled societal beliefs vie for control of my body.

Oh god. She's bending over. I can see some of her skin between her jeans and her shirt. I gulp.

Here I remain still. Struggling to just concentrate on what I'm supposed to be doing.

She stands back up. Her face is so perfect. Her figure is a work of art. I think to myself, "She probably has a boyfriend" and for some reason the sensation subsides... but only for a moment. No distraction is sufficient.

Some people have told me I over think things. It's not like I'm even trying to "over think" - it just naturally occurs.

Blah. I just want a release. Just an escape....or an embrace. Something to put out this fire. This fire that's burning inside of me. Burning desire.